True Story From an Anonymous Contributor #5
It happened almost by accident. The first time I happened upon pornography I knew what it was and it intrigued me. I felt like no one would know so I looked further. I have regretted that decision ever since.
My addiction to pornography was something that started in my mid-teens. It just felt good and like an escape from difficult things, which seems stupid because it made me feel worse about myself. I basically gave up trying to fight it until I really started to see how badly it affected my progress as a person. I felt like I had to hide everything about how I spent my time alone. I felt so worthless a lot of the time and hated myself after every time I failed.
I hate that this could make me someone that others don’t trust. I am ashamed of my addiction. You don’t need to be a religious person to know that this isn’t something to brag about. Every time I hear someone call someone else a perv or something, I think of what they would think of me if they knew about my addiction. My addiction has made me feel that I’m not as good or strong of a man as I should be.